I’m Not Sorry

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I’m not sorry.

I’m not sorry I love learning so much that I listen to history podcasts and share facts from them at weddings. I’m not sorry I think education is a misunderstood career and I know what I’m talking about when I discuss it. I’m not sorry I am obsessed with the Cleveland Indians and get passionate when I talk about them. I’m not sorry I choose to look on the bright side and approach challenges in life from a positive perspective. I’m not sorry I’d rather be proven wrong than be proven right. I’m not sorry I like beer and that drink my coffee black. I’m not sorry that my dog is my best friend or that I take and share lots of photos of her. I’m not sorry about my values and beliefs. I’m not sorry I enjoy cheesy books, Top 40 music, or Pumpkin Spice Lattes. I’m not sorry I forgive too easily. I’m not sorry I love my hometown and college. I’m not sorry that most the time I’d rather spend a night in rather than out. I’m not sorry I act honestly when I have the option to do otherwise. I’m not sorry I prioritize safety, spending time with my husband, or doing right by my students. I’m not sorry I’ve never done drugs and I’m not sorry my wedding was untraditional. I’m not sorry for my tattoos, my student loans, or my anxiety. I’m not sorry about my early bedtime, my sense of humor, or my singing voice.

I’m not sorry about being me.

things that are making me happy

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  • The photo above, which is my church’s weekly bulletin, because it shows the church’s weekly schedule for this week includes Dan and I’s wedding!!!!
  • Baseall
  • A good book
  • Funfetti cake
  • Naps
  • Singing loudly while driving my car
  • Early Sunday Starbucks treat
  • Visits with and calls from great friends
  • Finding a hilarious new favorite TV show
  • Sunshine and cool breezes
  • A clean house
  • A happy Madison

What is making you happy as of late?

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 10

For the month of March, I am participating in Fabulous Finds by Tiffany’s 31 Day Blog Challenge. Today’s prompt: Daily routine.

 

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My days do not always work out as planned/ideally, just like everyone else, but this is what an average, “good” weekday is in my book:

  1. Hit snooze over and over.
  2. Drag myself downstairs. Drink coffee and sit with Madison on the recliner while dozing/watching local news/playing on my phone.
  3. Frantically get ready for work. Sometimes while this is occurring I get a call from work  reassigning me to a different school/teacher for the day.
  4. Go to whatever school I am subbing at that day.
  5. Follow the plans left for me by the teacher for whom I am subbing.
  6. During swim season or swimming intramurals, I head to the high school, coach/supervise while a caffeinated diet soda and drinking lots of water, then go home. When those activities aren’t in season, I stop for a coffee and then go home,  or just go home (to make more coffee).
  7. Once home, I change into workout clothes, watch an episode of a TV show on Netflix, have a snack, and pet the dogs.
  8. Walk the dogs.
  9. Relax/do chores/take care of tasks for work or other things.
  10. Eat dinner and then workout OR workout then eat dinner.
  11. Some nights I may go out to play free bar trivia with my friends. If not, I will Skype with Dan, relax/do chores/take care of work stuff, or have a phone chat with a long distance friend.
  12. Shower/bath.
  13. Bed! : )

What is your routine like on a “good” weekday?

new year’s all year challenge: february reflections and march goals

In January, I introduced the 2013 challenge, in which I made broad “endpoint” goals for the year and explained that each month I would make specific small goals that are stepping stones to my endpoint aims. Each month I will also reflect on the previous month’s goals and efforts.

 

February goals:

  • Health: work out at least 150 min per week, stay hydrated, & do better with meal planning
  • Finances: budget and stick to it; research housing options; do taxes before the end of February!
  • Relationships: check in with everyone regularly
  • Wedding:  Knock as many things off my to-do list as possible!
  • Career: Give 110% every day and be a flexible and positive presence in the buildings in which I work; wrap up swim season well and begin planning off-season
  • Self-enrichment: try at least one new recipe; observe Random Acts of Kindness Week

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Reflections:

  • Health: I increased my exercise time logged even more than what I did in January, and was a lot more conscious of staying hydrated.
  • Finances: Again, like in January, I did a good job of actively monitoring my in and out flow of money, though I still did not write out a formal budget. Dan and I researched housing options, found some very strong choices, and moved forward on them. I did not get my taxes done by the end of February, but I did complete LearnVest’s Ace Your Taxes Bootcamp!
  • Relationships: I think I did okay with keeping up with friends and family, but honestly think I could have done better.
  • Wedding:  I reorganized the rest of the things that we need to complete into a series of several mini to do lists with deadlines. Feels SO MUCH BETTER.
  • Career: Teaching went really well – I did a great job subbing for a math teacher for a week and a half, even though math is not my favorite; coaching wrapped up pretty well with my swimmers doing great at the end of the season and reflecting and planning for the off-season
  • Self-enrichment: I kinda sucked at self-enrichment this month. I did cook and bake more than I have been recently, but no new recipes. And I unfortunately did not practice Random Acts of Kindness week. I have no good excuse, I basically was so busy with the very end of swim season I forgot that the week was even occurring. So I plan on granting myself a personal re-do week in March.

 

March Goals:

  • Health: log food daily; schedule nutritionist appointment; improve my aerobic/cardio endurance and work on strength training
  • Finances: Complete my taxes; make and stick to my budget; read 2 personal finance articles a week (I have much more time in March than in January – I can for sure do this!)
  • Relationships: give everyone a “proof of love” (something I’ve been reading about in the fantastic book The Happiness Project)
  • Wedding:  Complete tasks that are on the to-do list for March on time; have an open mind and enjoy the retreat for pre cana counseling
  • Career: prepare well and timely for awards night; map out a plan for swimming intra-murals; be a positive and flexible presences in the buildings in which I substitute
  • Self-enrichment: complete some readings on anxiety; fully “log off” for one hour a week; redo Random Acts of Kindness Week

 

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 4

Hey, everyone! How are you? I hope your week is off to a fabulous start. I’m feeling well myself! I’m enjoying participating in the 31 Day Blog Challenge. Today’s prompt: Best childhood memory.

 

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I don’t know about you, but to me childhood means elementary school years. When I thought back on them, even though I had amazing teachers at a wonderful schools that I have great memories of, unsurprisingly, most of my favorite childhood memories involve summer!

  • Moments with my siblings: going to the public pool and library with our mom, listening to the cassettes of The Phantom of the Opera and acting it out with Beanie Babies, playing Zelda and Diddy Kong Racing on N64, walking our dog Charlie and going to Zero Zest, laughing while my mom played piano beautifully and Charlie howled along, family traditions on holidays, etc.
  • Family reunions in Port Clinton (photo above) where my cousins and I would get super tan, swim all day, eat ice cream, play crazy games, make random friends, watch my dad build elaborate sandcastles, prank call our aunt and uncles, go tubing, get kicked out of Wendy’s, go bowling, and so much more.
  • Fun times with my friends: creating memory boxes and hiding them under the porch, pretending to train and take care of Santa’s reindeer at recess, Brownies meetings and activities, playing Barbies and singing along to *NSYNC, inventing variations of baseball that we could play in the driveway, actually playing baseball on summer rec teams, going for bike rides, and lots more.

What are some of your favorite childhood memories?

31 Day Blog Challenge: Days 2 & 3

I recently discovered and joined the 31 Day Blog Challenge. Here are (yesterday) Day 2: Favorite Quote(s) and (today) Day 3: What makes you happy?

 

Day 2: Favorite Quotes

I LOVE quotes. I keep a quote journal, I have an extensive Pinterest quote collection, I follow multiple Twitter accounts that exist solely to tweet quotes, etc. So there are a great deal of quotes that inspire me or have been especially meaningful to me throughout the years. However, over the past year or so – a time in which I have been trying to get sure footing in my career and life post-college while also learning how to better manage my anxiety – the quotes that have been especially inspirational and guiding to me have been the following two:

 

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Source: flickr.com via Kelly on Pinterest

 

 

Day 4: What makes you happy?

At this point in my life, I could write a great deal on this prompt. I am about 2/3 of the way through The Happiness Project, just purchased Happier at Home and Daring Greatly, and have been bookmarking articles on happiness and balance left and right. I guess the best answer I have to this question at this moment is this: Thinking about what I’m grateful for and brightens my life makes me happy. Morning coffee, cuddles and walks and playing with Madison, baking, reading a really good book, listening to history podcasts, watching a funny TV show, sharing a meal with my family, trivia with my friends, painting my nails, spending all day in sweatpants, helping and laughing and teaching my students and athletes, working out until I am dripping with sweat and feel on fire, listening to my mom play the piano, playing cards with my grandma, seeing a beautiful sunset or sunrise, and so much more.

 

What quotes do you love? What makes you happy?

new year’s all year: january reflections and february goals

Hello, all! I hope everyone is doing well. I was very busy with social and work obligations these past couple months, so while I didn’t get a chance to sit and blog like I hoped I would, I did make and work on my goals for the New Year’s All Year Challenge.

In January, I introduced the 2013 challenge, in which I made broad “endpoint” goals for the year and explained that each month I would make specific small goals that are stepping stones to my endpoint aims. Each month I will also reflect on the previous month’s goals and efforts.

 

My goals for January were:

  • Health: work out at least 150 minutes per week; stay hydrated
  • Finances: BUDGET and read 2 personal finance articles a week
  • Relationships: stay up-to-date/in contact with everyone
  • Wedding: So much to do! Basically carry over from December…Figure out florist/flower options and take care of it, map out honeymoon options, book a place for our picnic reception, send out save the dates for wedding day and picnic, and look for bridesmaid and flower girl dresses.
  • Career: be the most positive and helpful presence possible in the buildings I am in; stay prepared and ahead for swim planning
  • Self-enrichment: set aside at least two hours a week to myself to log off everything & relax, NO guilt!

Reflections:

  • Health: I did a great job of staying hydrated, but did not do an awesome job of exercising on a routine basis. I did up my exercising time, though.
  • Finances: I did do a good job of monitoring the in and out flow of my money, but I did not do very well at reading personal finance articles (no time for blogging, not much time for browsing the Internet for articles, either)
  • Relationships: I was very busy with teaching and coaching this month, but I did my best to stay in contact with everyone and see them whenever I could
  • Wedding: I got a lot more wedding things done than I realized! Almost everything listed, except the flowers. Don’t ask. I don’t understand why I can’t make decisions on them.
  • Career: I think I did well being flexible teaching and I worked extremely hard to be on top or ahead of swimming tasks. Sometimes things got crazy, but with the support of the coaching staff and athletic department and parents, things always got done.
  • Self-enrichment: I think I did a good job of allowing myself to have “me time” when I needed it, and I didn’t always feel guiltless about it, but I did feel less guilt than I had in the past.

 

February goals:

  • Health: work out at least 150 min per week, stay hydrated, & do better with meal planning
  • Finances: budget and stick to it; research housing options; do taxes before the end of February!
  • Relationships: check in with everyone regularly
  • Wedding:  Knock as many things off my to-do list as possible!
  • Career: Give 110% every day and be a flexible and positive presence in the buildings in which I work; wrap up swim season well and begin planning off-season
  • Self-enrichment: try at least one new recipe; observe Random Acts of Kindness Week

 

new year’s, all year: 2012 reflections

All year long, you have read posts from the New Year’s, All Year series. Every month, I created new goals in categories that I (at the beginning of 2012) had recognized as the current major areas of my life: health, finances, relationships, career, wedding planning, and self-enrichment. These goals were made to be stepping stones for the “endpoint” goals I had set for each of these areas – basically, how I wanted to end the year in regards to each area. I set “stepping stone” goals in order to to take into account any new obstacles and then set realistic, measurable objectives. That way, I didn’t make a ton of super specific goals in a year-long format and then have to scale them back throughout the year due to unexpected challenges.

I like this revised, 2012 format of the New Year’s, All Year Challenge much more than the original one from 2011. It made me really assess my desires and actions every month and be more mindful and reflective in my habits.

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So, what were my endpoint goals for 2012? Here they are:

  • Health: live an overall healthier lifestyle
  • Finances: be more organized, balanced, and responsible
  • Relationships: maintain mutually supportive relationships that are in balance with one another
  • Wedding: have location and date set and all major vendors booked
  • Career: aggressively pursue full-time teaching position; develop my coaching skills and knowledge while also developing the school’s swimming program further
  • Self-enrichment: allow “me” time without overindulging; actively participate in passions, hobbies, interests, etc. further

And what type of progress did I make? 

  • Health: I did improve my lifestyle, though I still have a long way to go. I lost some weight, which I needed to do, I learned more about how to eat best for my needs and lifestyle by seeing a nutritionist, I joined a gym, I tried new classes and two 5Ks, and I returned to counseling to manage new challenges in stemming from my issues with anxiety. I have more progress to make, but, overall, I think I’m leaving 2012 healthier than I entered it, and I consider that a success.
  • Finances: I am definitely more responsible and organized, though I do think I can still be more balanced and more attentive/pro-active.
  • Relationships: While I am only one person in each of my relationships, so I can’t speak definitively, I would say my relationships with my family, fiance, and friends are pretty solid and mutually supportive. I hope to do whatever I can to help them get stronger and be even better of a daughter, sister, fiancee/wife, friend, etc.
  • Wedding: locations are set, date is set, caterers and baker are set, music is set, photography is set…but there is still so much to do!!!
  • Career: I did aggressively pursue a full-time teaching position, and struggled with that challenge quite a bit. While I did not obtain one this school year, I did have an opportunity that was amazing for me and has opened up more doors and support. Also, the swim program has grown in strength and size.
  • Self-enrichment: I think I still need to find a balance between work and play and how much time to devote to each without being self-depriving or over-indulgent, but I think  I did a good job this year of letting myself enjoy life and not worry as much as I used to.

 

I am grateful for this year. It was hard, at times, for various reasons: self-confidence, career success, finances, family’s health, concern for others, changing negative habits, balance of relationships, wedding planning, loss, etc. But it was also a good year, for many, many reasons: learning how to better stay positive and grateful, career opportunities, grace and kindness of others, health problems having manageable solutions, progress in goals and plans, cherishing memories, and the power of love, laughter, and the little things in life that brighten a day. Some of my favorite moments of the year: celebrating Dan and I’s three year anniversary, the success of my first swim season as head coach, setting a wedding date, Bowling Green visits, seeing The Beach Boys, Indians games, another summer as a lifeguard, having my own classroom, seeing my sister in plays, being hired as a district substituteand countless “little things”: Netflix nights and dinners with my family or Dan, trivia nights with friends, going to the Starbucks drive thru with Madison and Sasha in the back seat, babysitting and housesitting, listening to podcasts on drives to and from Columbus, visits with my grandma or godchildren, lunch with my colleagues at school, naps on my parents’ porch, coffee every morning, and so, so much more.

I am greatly looking forward to what 2013 holds. Even if it brings some hard times, it will be okay. Life is hard, but I’m going to enjoy it anyway.